We
were driving down a familiar road headed home to our cottage in the
country when we saw something brown running alongside of the road. As we passed
by the creature, it fell to the ground and turned over, legs up toward
the sky. We pulled off the road and walked back toward the little thing and it
started wagging its tail.
The
pads of his paws were bloodied by the distance he had traveled on the blistering
hot asphalt. We could tell he was some sort of toy poodle despite the filthy, matted fur that covered his entire body. We scooped him up and headed home.
I
put him in the kitchen sink and ran warm water over his body, soaping him up
with shampoo. He shivered nervously as I clipped the matted clumps from
his frame revealing a soft coat of white fur. His ribs were showing through the short hair when I finished. We
wrapped him in a soft towel and held him until he was dry. I’ll never
forget the look of gratitude in his sweet eyes as he reached up to give me a kiss before falling asleep in my arms.
The
veterinarian told us that he was likely around nine years old, about ten
pounds, suffering a bit of malnutrition and from the normal parasites that go
along with living in the wild. We got him his shots and medication for the flea
bites and abrasions that were present on his feet and body. He went back home
with us, immediately taking charge of my lap like a hood ornament, staring out of the front window of the car.
We
weren’t supposed to have dogs in the small place we were renting,
but we convinced the landlord that he wouldn't be any trouble. With tile
floors, any cleanup would be minimal, we told them, and we would be responsible
for any damage. The little guy never once messed in the house.
Shortly
after that, we relocated to another city where we took him with us into an
apartment in a new complex with lime green shag carpet and Harvest Gold
appliances. We both found new jobs and Leo stayed home during the day. It wasn’t
long before the neighbors stopped us on our way inside.
“Did
you know that your dog howls the entire time you’re at work?” they asked.
“Well,
no.” We had no idea that he was so lonely. “I hope it doesn’t bother you.” No,
they didn’t mind. They also had a dog, a beagle they named Beagle, and he
barked most of the time.
Leo
seemed fine for a time and then he started howling so much he began to wheeze
and cough up foam. We took him to a new veterinarian who x-rayed his throat and
discovered he had a torn esophagus, probably from eating sticks and rocks when
he was out on his own. His jaw was also broken and not repairable, according to
the doctor. We were given little choice other than to put him down.
Still
in my teens as a young wife, it was my first time to make the ominous decision
to end the life of a pet. I could barely live with myself for weeks afterward. The
gaping hole in my heart after he made the trip to Heaven was nearly unbearable.
The only consolation was that his last few months of his life he was happy and
secure and well-loved. I always wondered where he came from, why he was out on
his own, who might be missing this little boy.